My biggest challenge as a mother is NOT changing diapers, sleepless nights, and cleaning sippy cups.
My biggest challenge haunts me daily. It suffocates me and frustrates me.
It is my complete inability to savor a moment.
I’ve always been this way. Whenever I TRY to take a moment in and cherish it, that cherishing just consists of me spending that moment fixating on how that moment will be OVER shortly. So instead of enjoying a moment, I sit there depressing myself over how it will soon be gone.
This issue is so bad that I look at all the photos of my two year old from when she was a baby and I hardly remember anything. I swear I have some kind of disorder–like before I know it I will be leaving post-it notes everywhere like the guy from Memento.
Whenever someone says, “Cherish this moment, it will be gone before you know it” I want to give them some villainous snarl because I just can’t fathom how people can do that. I can’t do that.
Sometimes cherishing means me taking a picture to remember it. But then quite often I am too busy taking the picture that I can’t cherish the moment. If I don’t take a picture, I sit there thinking about how I know I won’t remember it, or just that the moment will never come again. Depressing. See my problem?
But what I underestimate is the power of the mind. You CAN block out thoughts. Just don’t allow them to be there. Instead, I will use my moment to forbid me to fixate on how the moment will be gone, but just take a moment to feel so grateful and blessed to be given that moment.
I often think about what heaven must be like. And I have decided that if I take all these moments and cherish them, then heaven must be where all those moments exist and I can just bathe in them for eternity. And if Heaven isn’t like that, then it must be something better–and I look forward to that.
So my baby step right now is to take those moments and really cherish them. Who’s with me?
Who has some great tips for cherishing moments?